Where am I?

Why is being in a relationship so hard?
Why can't everyday be a replay of the first time we met?
Talking on the phone all night, trying to set up dates for the next day.
Asking questions, getting answers.
Learning. Sharing. Having fun?

Why what was once a choice is now an obligation?
What was once fun is now mundane.
What was once pure is now tainted.
Puppy love tainted by rough and powerful, full of emotions and heartache, attached
at the hip but head turned the other way in disgust love.

What happened to fun aerial?
Strong aerial? I'm right and never wrong aerial?
Why was she fired and replaced by take everything too serious aerial, cry to get my point
across aerial, whiny voice and permanant sad face aerial?

Where was she at all along? I never remember meeting her before.
Did she even come in and apply for the job or did you just conjure her up to put in place of me?
Of course you didn't. She was always here. Just buried. Out of season and for a reason.

I think it's time for a late but very important Spring Cleaning.