Because I said so

How is your happiness defined? Happiness to me is seeing my baby brother with his nappy head and buck teeth, hearing his outrageous chuckle and his elongated stories about the bad little baybay kids at his school. Happiness to me is a peaceful day without arguing with my ex boyfriend about things that are now beyond my control... things that I would rather not be wasting my precious breath on. Happiness to me is making hard earned money and saving it in order have enough to move out of this state that holds me back from growing... Well how have I been able to maintain my happiness if none of these things have been happening? Simply on the basis that things could be so much worse than they are now! If you are having a bad day, week, month. Take a minute to think about just how worse things could be. What if you one of those people who are having a bad year? Lets be grateful people, because one man's trash is truly another man's treasure. So how is your happiness defined?

I imagine my future, as a grand one. One with no snot nose kids or ruthless neighbors. When I see myself, I am prancing down the street in a business skirt and some BAD pumps. And when I say BAD I mean BAD meaning good not BAD meaning bad. Sometimes I am on a cell phone and other times I am crossing the street and all I can see is a side profile of my black rimmed glasses and my hair in a bun. I envision being in a busy city, work related to journalism and pay being similar to now... livable . I never see rich and famous but definitely radiant and fabulous. I see me then, very similar to the way I see me now, except I am much more confident and humorously inches taller. (I gasp as I realize this) I am my mother! In my dreams I am my mother, a beautiful light skinned, (even though I am more on the caramel side) working women with long legs and a look of determination. Funny how I used to hate her, and now I wanna be her. This could've been a belated mother's day attribute but m