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if i could write a letter to my child
the child that i do not have
do not want to have
do not see myself having
i would write it to inform her of all the trouble she has caused
of all the late nights filled with worry and frustration
headache and heartache
sweat and tears
or at least the ones that will come to be

i wonder if my mother ever thought about writing this letter to me
she had me at seventeen
i must have kept her up plenty of late nights
late nights filled with worry and frustration
headache and heartache
sweat and tears

if i could write a letter to my child
the child that i do not have
do not want to have
do not see myself having
i would paint her a picture of the life i lived
the life i live now without her
the life i love
now
without her
would i love it still if she were here
imposing

if i could write a letter to my child...


a friend of mine aborted his unborn child today
im sure the letter to his child would have been similar to mine
he says he can't have girls, he has two sons, he has two brothers
what if this one were a girl

a friend of mine wrote a letter to his child
but she never got it 
she no longer lives here 
return to sender

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All-Mi-T [Thought Crime] Rawdawgbuffalo said…
lovely
have a blessed 2009
u know the broke into my shop folk
January 8, 2009 at 12:04 PM
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